i drank your olive branch
on the garage forecourt
shut the boy inside
crying in the bathroom
with the fan turned on
a fridge magnet affirmation
a station of the cross
to fill the empty cot
what if i see nothing
in the rorschach blot
but another holy family
in their mid range car
with their sunburnt child
screaming in his takeaway crown
why do i have to go on
as if anything else matters
i bought you a paperweight
from the duty free at the airport
the kind that when you shake it snowflakes
chase their children round the food court
you think you might be two days late
but who's counting anymore
imagine if we dared even imagine
imagine if
the airline called to say my case
was somewhere over germany
but i still stood in reclaim watching the grey belt circling
somehow waiting comes so easily
now that long first year's becoming three
imagine if we dared even imagine
imagine if
i couldn't bear to come home again with nothing
so i bought you a paperweight
from the duty free at the airport
the kind that when you shake it snowflakes
run the same race over and over
i know it's the hope that will break your heart
but i just can't help but leave the door ajar
imagine if we dared even imagine
imagine if
i'll race you to the dogwood tree
our maiden names strung from the eaves
you draft the note i'll cut the key
and leave the sidegate open
we bought this house to cut the cord
and washed the lambs blood off the door
but nothing grows here anymore
and every birdflight is an omen
when you believe in anything
do you believe in anything
i don't believe in anything
so leave your prophets in the whale
and your loose change on the rail
some people try and never fail
but we tried and only tried and
you can lay on hands and sing
if you believe in anything
i don't believe in anything
you called after work with the news
choosing your words like brushstrokes
of foundation over a new bruise
i was not always this box of eggshells
not knowing then
that some beginnings have no end
if i pretend that i am happy for you for long enough
maybe i'll be happy for you
all i want is to float on my back
belonging to noone
unbeholden
to all this want
this spoiling hunger for some
spring yet to come
the bud unopened
all i need is to be
all i want is to lay in the darkness on
the bowling green dumb
and unemboldened
by all this want
that wagers the night for a dawn
that may never come
the word unspoken
all i need is to be
i pissed on your living room carpet
while you were away on annual leave
neglected your cat into the arms of a neighbour
your joy was so loud
it made me feel small and incomplete
a boy again in some older cousins cable knit sweater
o come on
no harm done
i picture you coming home sunlit
still picking confetti from your teeth
sniffing the air calling his name
trailing white streamers and tin cans
is it such a crime to want or to be found wanting
in thirty three months all we conceived was an absence
a nothing that has become everything
a belly swollen only with craving
for what we are not now and fear we may yet never be
and the more we feed its timpani heart
with sepia filtered photographs
of newborn mothers blinking back at us
or hold her in our arms again
our hands over the gashob flame
the more it kicks and kicks again
again again again again
in thirty three months all we conceived was an absence
a nothing that has become everything
we dream of cutting ourselves open
and dragging our once private grief screaming into the world
won't you have a hold
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